THE CONVERSATION

HER: Im so happy you're done with your exams and
even happier that you passed them..



HIM: Yeah well i'm just glad i get to hang with you
again... Mehn you were so bent on me staying away; it
felt like maybe you needed space..

HER: C'mon baby, you know that aint true... I
just really wanted you to pass; didnt wanna be a
distraction.

HIM: You know you're my favourite distraction.

HER: Ohh stop it.

They make-out, talk and watch a movie... Classic
couple hang-out... I thought it was perfect.

HER: I have something to tell you... It was another
reason why i really wanted you to stay away; i didnt
want you to worry bout it.

HIM: Tell me.

HER: Some weeks before your exams i found out i was
pregnant... I had been feeling really weird and funny
for a while so i did a pregnancy test; it was positive...
I didnt know what to do and i couldnt start to bother
you with all of that... It would have disturbed your prepping
Me and Kate did some calculations and figured twas
about a month. I knew i couldn't keep it and we
couldn't so we got some drugs and em...

HIM: Oh my God... Karen are you crazy!!!! You could
have gotten hurt... Jeez... Why didnt you tell me.

HER: Dude i was actually fucking doing you a favour...

HIM: It is a me and you thing... You jump, i jump
remember...

HER: Ohh please thats crap.. What decision was there
to make?? Would you actually have wanted to keep the
child?? Would you??
You have no idea how hard it was...
She was crying now...

HIM: Im sorry... I really am...
How are you now?? Is everything down there
okayy??

HER: Im finee; everything's fine.. Nothing to worry
about...

It was past 4am... I had a terrible night sleep...
Her revelation freaked the hell outta me... So i did
what i said i wouldnt do again.
I picked her phone and i read her diary...

11am Sept 8th
All i feel is pain... Everything hurts soo much...
There is soo much blood; im soo weak and tired all the
time... I wish he was here; i know i would feel better...
6pm Sept 12th
Im starting to feel better... The bleeding
stopped yesterdayy... Kate advised me to go see
a doctor.. Well to be sure that we didnt damage
anything...
3pm Oct 6th
We did go to see a doctor and she said down there
is fine.. That made me so happy...
I do really regret what happened... I dont know how
to forgive myself and sometimes i get nightmares.
I hope that maybe someday God will forgive me..

HIM: i couldnt believe that she had gone through all
this alone.. I felt so bad; felt like a failure....
I watched her sleep and with tears rolling down my
eyes i realized that i had broken my promise to her...
I promised to love her and to always be there for her
but at the moment she needed me the most, i wasnt
there... And i couldnt beg ignorance as my excuse...